This and That and BIG DAY MONDAY!

Well today we took James to Encanto park where they have rides and paddle boats for some fun. I forgot about this park and how much fun it is. The paddle boats were closed do to a private party but James got to ride on some other fun stuff, cars, tea cup twirl and we tried to put him in these bumper boats but he cried mainly because he wanted to get in the water instead of the boat, not to mention the kid operating the boats was a wee bit scary to James with a crazy mo hawk thing and piercings galore so he was a bit apprehensive to begin with. But I am in a way better about it, because the boats did not have belts in them and my little bugger loves water so much he may have jumped in. We waited in line a while though, so I was a little bumbed but quickly recovered, god works in mysterous ways so it probably was going to be a catastrophe. We had lunch then came home for naps, Oh how I love naps. That is the only thing I miss the most (outside of James of course) about having a job is my naps.

Tonight we might go to boo at the zoo and have James dress up in is Halloween costume, he is going to be spider man and he loves Halloween all the scary stuff make shim laugh in fact we decorated outside a bit and he even has been in his way saying Halloween, and I have been working on the trick or treat, of course I have to be silly and say trick or treat smell my feet give me something good to eat every time I say it and he just howls with laughter which makes you do it even more, because his laugh is so contagious.

Monday is our big day, feeding tube day. All though I am a bundle of nerves, as is my husband we are ready. I have finally got a phenomenal feeding therapist and we are switching OT's the beginning of November who is phenomenal, as well I think the feeding tube will enable us to be more relaxed with James' feeding issues and hopefully give us the time we need to conquer them. We will no longer have to stress as much because he did not eat enough and is not gaining weight. I can not wait for the weight to gain!!!! With that being said I of course am teary eyed. I have spoken with a lot of mom's who's children are now off the feeding tube but were one day in my shoes and have nothing but positive stories with great outcome for there children . So that helps ease the tension of the decision. But I really think this is the best thing for James and us at this time in our life's. So wish us well and I will post after surgery.

I will leave you with some photos to enjoy, just ignore me I am the most un photo genic person on the planet.

Thanks for visiting and all your support. I recently did a magazine article for parents in the NICU life and one of my comments mentioned was blogging and how mush support you can get and how therapeutic it can be, so thanks for that.

Tracy

You don't know LOVE until you have a child!

How many agree? I can not believe how much I love my son. It is just unbelievable how he fills my heart, sometimes it aches with love, sometimes it really hurts with love or angers with love but it never stops smiling with love. He is so amazing in so many ways and everyday surprises me with new amazement. I love being able to be home with him, I love how he still smells like baby and how when I hug him he squeezes me back tight and pats my back. Or how when he kisses me he follows with MMMWA! I love how he repeats or tries to repeat everything I say(got to be careful) I sometimes find myself spelling words because even though he may not say them yet he knows what they mean. I love how he tries to do everything I do, especially when I am cleaning he likes to grab wipes and wipe things or dust, and vacuuming the kids cries when I stop. I love going into a room after he has been playing and finding all the creative things his has done, like throwing my hair clips in the trash or throwing a shoe in the sink. I love hearing the pitter patter of his feet coming down the hall way just when I thought I had escaped to go to the bathroom by myself :) I love how he remembers things that happened days or even weeks ago,or things that are different from before. I love how I can show him something once and he does or tries to do it until he has successfully done it on his own(sometimes). I love his laugh and how sometimes he covers his mouth when he laughs I even love his temper and whining because he is so like me. I love to watch him sleep or play when he does not know I am there, I love it when he dances and tries to sing a song. I love going for walks and how he points and squeels just over leaves blowing down the street, I love how he now says mama water or mama rocko (our dog) And I espeacially love in the mornings when he wakes how happy he is and how he hands me his blanket. I love how sweet he is and well, I guess I love being his mom. I now know how much my parents loved me!!!

BIG FOOT

So I feel horrible, Since James does not grow much in the weight department and his height has been the same for a while, I neglect to think about his feet growing, DUH!! The other night we went for a walk and he had on his sandals every so often he would stop and sit down and grab his foot and say OWE, (one of his new words) I would check for rocks but nothing. So we continued on and he continued to do this every so often, finally I just took his shoes off.

So Monday I decided to go to the shoe store and get his foot measured, are you ready for this he was a size 6, I repeatedly had the sales girl measure them again, because I just could not believe this. Sure enough he is a size 6, his sandals were (Oh I am so ashamed) a size 4 and his sneakers a size 5, I always buy sneakers a little bigger. His sandals did not look to be 2 sizes to Small on his foot although his heel did hang over the back a little. So we bought some new shoes in a SIZE 6! I guess all his calories are going to his feet, oh and his head those seem to be the only thing with steady growth. So I guess he will be this brainy smart child with big feet. (Ha Ha)

Tracy